Amanda's So Called Fibro Life

I was wondering how long I would emotionally be okay after having a hysterectomy. So many parts of my life have been affected by my uterus. I have four amazing and beautiful children whom I love with all of my heart and each one of them survived the first part of their life in my uterus. The fact that it is gone now is a little heartbreaking. If something were to happen to my family, there is no way that I could ever have another child. I can't imagine losing my children to a tragedy and never being able to have children again. So, there is an emotional turmoil that I am feeling this day, three days post surgery. What Did I Expect?  So, you might be wondering just what I expected to come of my surgery. I know that I was expecting to feel better and to have less problems that I had been facing, but I was not ready to face the extensive issues and fears that I have been feeling. This is something that is happening and has happened and obviously there is no going back, but am I sti...

Having a hysterectomy sucks. I am in pain and I am very sore. I have not been able to do much without getting annoyingly tired in the process. So, here I am to share a little of my sorrow with you. I miss my children. I miss them so much that it hurts. I know that they are having more fun with relatives who are able to cater to them while I am laid up, but it is not common that I do not have them for more than one night and after so many nights in a row, it sure is going to feel good tomorrow morning when they get home. I can't wait to start some new ways to connect with the kids into the new year. I am going to challenge each of them to a journal time, even if we are working on journals together. I want to have more creative time as a family where they work on arts and crafts and less time spent on electronics. This means that I am going to have to have to get my creative juices flowing as well. 2019 is going to be a new year for our family and part of that journey is making sur...

I have to admit that I am a bit of a shoe whore, that being said if I could afford to revamp my shoes, you might be surprised by what I would have in a dream world of shoes. One thing is for certain and this is that Tieks would top my shoe love. Let's face it, Tieks are some amazing flats and if you have not heard of them, then I need to apologize to you off-hand because you are going to fall in love when you slip your feet into the very best flats that you will ever be able to find. Tieks are highly sought after and well crafted shoes. They run around $175-300 per pair and many might not understand why you would buy a pair of shoes that costs this much until you put them on your feet and then it will all come back to you. You will not be disappointed. A few years back, I was working as a high profile mom blogger. While I loved my time writing about the things that moms wanted to read about, I was left feeling unfulfilled with the blogging style that I was writing and the f...

Welcome to the planner sphere. Yes, this is a look at the adorable collection of goodies that I have to help myself to be better with planning on using my planner in 2019. Choosing the Right Planner   I knew that I had a few different needs to meet when I was choosing a planner for 2019. I knew that I needed one planner that was dedicated to health and wellness, one dedicated to my entire life, and one dedicated to my education. So far this year, I have purchased two. I have one that is dedicated to our whole life and I chose it in all honesty because of how cute it looked and that I wanted a planner that I liked to look at.  The second planner that I chose was one that was going to help me break down goals and get work done. This was the planner that I decided would house all of my school work, projects for school, deadlines for scholarships and assistantship applications, and more. It was the planner that would be dedicated to school. I am still trying to fi...

When I was challenged with thinking about resolutions, I said "screw that!!" Resolutions are kind of a joke and are something that I am happy that I am no longer struggling to hold onto. Let's be honest with ourselves for a minute, each new year we set resolutions and then wonder why we do not accomplish them by the end of the year. I think that one of the main reasons is that we call them resolutions which  means that we are resolved to doing certain activities. However, by simply changing the language and going into 2019 with goals, I know that I can accomplish the dreams that I have set out to accomplish. So, here are my goals for 2019 and a small action plan for each one of these goals so that I can create a future for myself in a better place for 2019. Goal #1 -- More Time with Family I want to have more time with my children, want to play more board games, do more crafts and activities, and spend more time doing special things with the four most important young...

So, Thursday I had a full hysterectomy. Yes, I am only 36 years old, but as a mom to four I know that I am done having children and with the past 7 years that I have been living in hell since the youngest was born, it is nice to know that in a few months there will never be another problem associated with my uterus. Since Adeline, the youngest, was born on December 5, 2011, I have had some serious medical struggles and have not felt like myself. My entire life, except when I was pregnant, I had weighed between 135 and 170. I was happy in this weight range and always just thought of myself as a size 12. Fast forward to the first few months following Adeline's birth and it was like I physically could not lose weight. In fact, I struggled with my end of pregnancy weight which was the same as the first three children around 256. I knew that I needed to lose weight but oddly was clueless in how to do it because after the first three, the weight just kind of came off and I would lose t...

Hello. My name is Amanda and I like to think of myself as the average mid-30s mom of four. My life is everything that I had ever dreamed of. I live in a home that I love, have an amazing loving and caring husband, and have four amazing children. However, a few years back I started living in severe pain. I would wake up in the middle of the paralyzed and unable to move where it felt as though someone was lighting every joint in my body on fire. This was the beginning of my so-called life with fibro. The pain that I experienced was quite intense and is something that kept me from being able to do many of the things that I enjoyed. I knew that I still wanted to accomplish great things in life, even though my personal path to greatness was not like other people's. I knew that I wanted to find relief from the symptoms of my fibro without feeling drugged and being unable to function completely.  Doctors were very willing to put me on a whole host of pills and other medications that had...