Missing My Littles
Having a hysterectomy sucks. I am in pain and I am very sore. I have not been able to do much without getting annoyingly tired in the process. So, here I am to share a little of my sorrow with you. I miss my children. I miss them so much that it hurts. I know that they are having more fun with relatives who are able to cater to them while I am laid up, but it is not common that I do not have them for more than one night and after so many nights in a row, it sure is going to feel good tomorrow morning when they get home.
I can't wait to start some new ways to connect with the kids into the new year. I am going to challenge each of them to a journal time, even if we are working on journals together. I want to have more creative time as a family where they work on arts and crafts and less time spent on electronics. This means that I am going to have to have to get my creative juices flowing as well. 2019 is going to be a new year for our family and part of that journey is making sure that we are mentally healthy as well.
I can't wait to talk to Andrew about his plan of attack for the high school second half of his sophomore year. I honestly cannot believe that he is only going to be living at home full time for two more years. I am certainly not ready for that phase of life to be over and for our household dynamic to go through more changes. I should graduate with my MA the same year that Andrew graduates with his high school diploma. I really want to enter a PhD program after that, but am worried about not being in the same area as Andrew when he goes to college. I realize how silly this sounds since he would likely be going away if I stayed home, but to move to a new family home that he is never going to be living at full time is going to be a new challenge for me and presents me with a wide range of emotions that I had not previously thought about.
As for Althea, I cannot wait to hear about her adventures. She got to go a friend's for a sleepover and then got to hang out before having to pick me up from the hospital. She got some alone time with her dad and got to stay at my mom and dad's as well as my grandma's for a night. I love the stories that she tells me and the courage that this child has. I love that she is never afraid to be herself and that she does not let what others think of her or the value that others give her to affect how she sees herself. This is a truly admirable task and something that I strive to one day learn as well as she already has.
Huxley is so rambunctious and full of energy that our house seems quiet, empty and boring with him gone. I really love having him home to laugh at and in hearing his giggles that seem to constantly be around. I have enjoyed being able to be a mom to someone who is so different from myself and I feel like Huxley is the perfect opposite version of me. He is athletic and seems to be quite the little sportsman. However, he also has a very sweet side to himself where he loves babies and toddlers and I know that one day even though all of crazy actions that he is going to grow to be a responsible and respectful adult.
As for my youngest, well Adeline is that one little person in my life who is always able to light up the room for me. She can make me go from feeling down and out to being happy in a matter of seconds and she gives me reasons to smile and laugh any time that she is around. Sometimes in life you are lucky enough to meet that perfect match to who you are as a person, I was lucky enough to find that in my own daughter. I know that this might sound odd but she really is a perfect accompaniment to our family dynamic and for me personally.
I have been so blessed to have Shane here with me and to have his constant devotion and dedication to taking care of me. He is one of the sweetest and kindest men whom I have ever met and is someone that I feel beyond blessed to have had the opportunity to spend the past few days. He has taken great care of me and it has been nice to recover some in the quiet, but I am so ready for my brand of chaos to be back to normal, even if I am going to be stuck on bedrest for a few more days and stuck home for a couple of weeks without driving and doing the things that I normally do.
I can't wait to start some new ways to connect with the kids into the new year. I am going to challenge each of them to a journal time, even if we are working on journals together. I want to have more creative time as a family where they work on arts and crafts and less time spent on electronics. This means that I am going to have to have to get my creative juices flowing as well. 2019 is going to be a new year for our family and part of that journey is making sure that we are mentally healthy as well.
I can't wait to talk to Andrew about his plan of attack for the high school second half of his sophomore year. I honestly cannot believe that he is only going to be living at home full time for two more years. I am certainly not ready for that phase of life to be over and for our household dynamic to go through more changes. I should graduate with my MA the same year that Andrew graduates with his high school diploma. I really want to enter a PhD program after that, but am worried about not being in the same area as Andrew when he goes to college. I realize how silly this sounds since he would likely be going away if I stayed home, but to move to a new family home that he is never going to be living at full time is going to be a new challenge for me and presents me with a wide range of emotions that I had not previously thought about.
As for Althea, I cannot wait to hear about her adventures. She got to go a friend's for a sleepover and then got to hang out before having to pick me up from the hospital. She got some alone time with her dad and got to stay at my mom and dad's as well as my grandma's for a night. I love the stories that she tells me and the courage that this child has. I love that she is never afraid to be herself and that she does not let what others think of her or the value that others give her to affect how she sees herself. This is a truly admirable task and something that I strive to one day learn as well as she already has.
Huxley is so rambunctious and full of energy that our house seems quiet, empty and boring with him gone. I really love having him home to laugh at and in hearing his giggles that seem to constantly be around. I have enjoyed being able to be a mom to someone who is so different from myself and I feel like Huxley is the perfect opposite version of me. He is athletic and seems to be quite the little sportsman. However, he also has a very sweet side to himself where he loves babies and toddlers and I know that one day even though all of crazy actions that he is going to grow to be a responsible and respectful adult.
As for my youngest, well Adeline is that one little person in my life who is always able to light up the room for me. She can make me go from feeling down and out to being happy in a matter of seconds and she gives me reasons to smile and laugh any time that she is around. Sometimes in life you are lucky enough to meet that perfect match to who you are as a person, I was lucky enough to find that in my own daughter. I know that this might sound odd but she really is a perfect accompaniment to our family dynamic and for me personally.
I have been so blessed to have Shane here with me and to have his constant devotion and dedication to taking care of me. He is one of the sweetest and kindest men whom I have ever met and is someone that I feel beyond blessed to have had the opportunity to spend the past few days. He has taken great care of me and it has been nice to recover some in the quiet, but I am so ready for my brand of chaos to be back to normal, even if I am going to be stuck on bedrest for a few more days and stuck home for a couple of weeks without driving and doing the things that I normally do.
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